Awakening Experiences Finally Become Permanent

Saleem Rana

By Saleem Rana –

It feels weird telling people about my inner experiences. But, perhaps, my story will encourage others to seek the divine presence within themselves.

I first became aware that life was more than it appeared to be when I was 14-years-old. At that time, I read books by Lobsang Rampa. These talked about things like clairvoyance, astral travel and psychic powers. His tales of psychic adventures intrigued me, and I practiced his techniques. In the beginning, not much happened. Then one day, sick in bed with the flu, I floated out of my body and saw it below me in bed. After that night, I could leave my body at night and float out of my bedroom. I soared into clouds and floated above city streets. I swooped over hills, forests, and open fields. I flew over meandering rivers and wide oceans.

This wonderful phenomenon disappeared after I went to college. At California Lutheran University, I became interested in Existentialism. I then developed a quiet, persistent despair over the meaning of life.

In my 30s, I sought meaning in psychology and Eastern religions. I was particularly fascinated by Hinduism, which described everyone as an emanation of Brahman. The Bhagavad Gita suggested casting off the veil of Maya through enlightenment. Discovering my true self intrigued me, so I began to meditate an hour every day. Finally, after a decade of no spiritual experiences at all, I gave up.

A few years later, I read the Power of Now by Eckhart Tolle. The book had just come out. As I read the book in the library, I began to identify with his description of the Presence. In fact, I began to feel that I was the Presence reading about the Presence. For three weeks, I was in a space of deep peace and blissful awareness. Then one day, I woke up to find that my anxious mind was back.

Many years later, the experience returned. After wandering around a mall job-hunting, I went home in utter despair. As I sat in my living room, worrying because I was down to my last five dollars, my mind cleared. Once again, I became aware of myself as the Presence. This wonderful state lasted for about three days. During this time, my mind was completely silent. Then, once again, my mind switched on. My sense of connection to the Presence disappeared.

A decade later, I joined Oneness and experienced much personal growth. I did not think I would ever awaken as I could not afford to go to Oneness University in India. I did feel a mild peace after Oneness blessings. Unfortunately, this would soon pass.

Then, on February 4, 2013, I woke up in the middle of the night after a vivid dream. I sat straight up in bed. I knew without a shadow of a doubt that I was the Presence. Since then, this awareness has never left me. I don’t experience bliss or a silent mind, but I witness my personality. It’s some kind of persistent illusion. My awakening has lasted for two years now. It continues to deepen.

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